FQF: 7/30

WTF July is almost over.

Here's another one that never gets old:

"I'm so upset I can't even go to church."

Hate To Feel

What's gone wrong, I can't see straight
Been too long, so full of hate

What the fuck will it take
Drown myself in my wake
Another shaggy D.A.
Now a dog, shake my leg
Plastic man, paper face
Candy heart, what a waste
Gotta change, set a date
Eat my cake, lick my plate

Stare at me with empty eyes and
Point your words at me
Mirror on the wall will show you
What you're scared to see

I can see, yeah, wish I couldn't see at all
I can feel, wish I couldn't feel at all
Hate to see, wish I couldn't see at all
Hate to feel, wish I couldn't feel at all

So climb walls, thin my blood now
And I crawl, back to bed now

What the hell, gotta rest
Aching pain in my chest
Lucky me, now I'm set
Little bug for a pet
New Orleans, gotta get
Pin cushion medicine
Used to be curious
Now the shit's sustenance

All this time I swore I'd never
Be like my old man
What the hey it's time to face
Exactly what I am

I can see, yeah, wish I couldn't see at all
I can feel, wish I couldn't feel at all
Hate to see, wish I couldn't see at all
Hate to feel, wish I couldn't feel at all

-Alice in Chains

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pwaBE84gocY

Summer Nights, Impossible Odds

I can't believe I just referenced Styx. But I did.

After two weekends of travel, and as importantly, after an interminable week, I needed to just relax this weekend. A nice quiet weekend of lying by the pool (ahhh.....), getting drunk and disorderly, and shooting a handgun. Not all in the same day, thankfully. I'd most likely be writing this from jail if that were the case. Nothing too worth mentioning (this is not to say that nothing happened), except for this, which you have to see to believe:

MQM: 7/26

"All that happens means something; nothing you do is ever insignificant."

-Aldous Huxley

A little extreme? Only if you think the Butterfly Effect is crap. I mean the theory, if you think the movie sucks I'm not going to argue with you.

FQF: 7/23

This was said by one of my partners over at Top 5. Those of you who know us can easily guess who.

"So I brought my baseball bat. And my flail too."

New York State Of Mind

Went to NYC for the weekend. Here's what I can remember.

Long Division

(This is not a song about math.)

It's a long time coming,
It's a long way down,
It's long division, crack and divide.
This is a parting, some separation,
We lay in pieces, cracked to survive.

I'm not your villain, not your adversary,
I'm not your reason to crack and divide.
It's long division, crack and divide.
-Fugazi

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7ZLJNemvD2U

MQM: 7/20

Yeah, I know, it's Tuesday. Well, Tuesday is my Monday.

Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.
-George Bernard Shaw

FQF: 7/16

About to leave for NYC for the weekend, and because of who I'm going to see I'm reminded of this gem. We're at Disney World and it's hot out and we're thirsty. And being a theme park, everything is overpriced. So one of my friends goes up to a cart selling water and says:

"Hi. I'd like a $4 bottle of water please."

Calm but annoyed, the guy selling water retorts:

"It's $3.50."

WTF July

Simon: I swear... when it's appropriate.
Kaylee: Simon, the whole point of swearing is that it ain't appropriate.
-Firefly

After looking back at some of the things that have happened and looking ahead to some of the things that will happen this month, I have decided this is no longer merely July. It's "WTF July," in a good way...

Storms

Every night that goes between
I feel a little less
As you slowly go away from me
This is only another test

Every night you do not come
Your softness fades away
Did I ever really care that much
Is there anything left to say

Every hour of fear I spend
My body tries to cry
Living through each empty night
A deadly call inside

I haven't felt this way I feel
Since many a year ago
But in those years and the lifetimes past
I did not deal with the road

And I did not deal with you I know
Though the love has always been
So I search to find an answer there
So I can truly win

Every hour of fear I spend
My body tries to cry
Living through each empty night
A deadly call inside

So I try to say goodbye my friend
I'd like to leave you with something warm
But never have I been a blue calm sea
I have always been a storm

We were frail
She said "Every night he will break your heart"
I should have known from the first
I'd be the broken hearted
But I loved you from the start
And not all the prayers in the world, could save us
-Fleetwood Mac

One of my favorite songs by one of my favorite bands on one of my favorite albums.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Fzu1HDSOgE

Returning The Screw

A fine disservice
Deceptive, too
Check for the sender
Sender was you

Caught me wide open
No simple burn
This is complicated
Calls for return

Fine disservice
Intended, too
Check for the sender
Sender was you

The point has been recorded,
The malice has been revealed
When I stripped away the humor
From the arrow that it concealed
Sharpened and soaked in urine
It was meant to spread disease
But now discovered
Becomes the sweet antithesis

Returning the screw
It comes back to you
-Fugazi

Been on a Fugazi kick as of late. And for good reason, they're phenomenal. This song starts as nothing then crescendos into fury.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jIxQeXd8rAU

4th of July

It's been a month for the Summer of Dave. Well, 6 weeks, but the month of June has come and gone. Looking back, it feels like that first entry was months ago, and I consider that a good thing. It's true that time flies when you're having fun, so for the past 6 weeks to feel longer than that is to me a good thing. I don't want the time to fly by like it was yesterday, I've had enough of that.

A lot has happened in those six weeks. There was an awesome wedding, a good trip to the beach, a nice weekend with an old friend and the World Cup took up a good portion of my days. I went to some new places, tried some new things, and had a lot of good experiences. Like 4th of July...

MQM: Independence Day

Yes, Independence Day was yesterday. I don't do this stuff on the weekend. And most of you have off today for it anyway.

"I only regret that I have but one life to give for my country." - Nathan Hale, the first American spy, his last words before being hanged by the British.